uptowndown

I’ve been waking up drenched in sweat

longing for the palms on my neck

I’ve been walking through your maze

Soaked in a lonely daze

I met you downtown when you said

You’d never leave the side of my bed

Screaming by the water

I’ll never be one of your daughters

Promising you’d give me anything I’d wanted

when thinking I had it all sorted.

Kept my head clenched in your hands

kept me trusting we might be friends.

I’ve been falling awake

waking asleep

fingers drip

last time we met

gave me all I wanted to get

picture perfect glass vase kept

controlled, contained, ideal, I let

myself be a part

playing part

doing right

as you wish

you wish

I swish

out

I snap

I break

Under covers

Of your palms

On my neck