A small handbook for masochists.
Step on a lego or
smash your foot against the nearest wall.
Lay down in the cold and don’t move.
Smoke three cigarettes in a row
not blinking.
Stare at the sun without sunglasses
for five minutes or more.
Remind yourself of all the things
that have gone wrong
although you did try
your best.
Burn your skin under a steaming shower.
Listen to the same songs that make you cry,
wear the most uncomfortable jeans
you can find in your closet.
Look at the night sky
laying on the ground
holding someone else’s hand
and whisper
‘I love you’
knowing that he is a brick wall
you have just added another stone.
Live in the silence for a bit
creating your own illusion
with clenched teeth tell everyone
that you are doing just fine.
Keep making two coffees in the morning
keep making new ways
to make things work
playing the same melody
on repeat
to keep you from falling
to never let your feet
stop touching the ground again.
Get your heart ripped off of your chest
go out and play
without a plaster
hiding the bareness.
If all of that doesn’t work
try doing it again
this time – all at the same time.
